I look at all the postings on DZ.com and feel like ****!

I remember the days that everyone stuck together with anyone who was dedicating themselves to BASE alone, knowing that there would never be money or glory, but at least comradery. Now I just don't see any of that. Times have moved on, the days where I could spend 40-60 hours of my spare time on BLiNC instead of my wife have gone, thus, it seems so has the people who once were here.

I can't afford to pay thousands on software, and I already pay heaps to keep the dedicated server, but alas, that does not seem to be enough...

What the hell am I to do?

Who do I even help anymore?

Was everything I have done just a waste?

The software upgrades I need to do to get BLiNC faster are around $500.00 or more. This is why I am contemplating right now whether to spend that money on something that nobody will care about anymore.

Funny thing, I still remember the day I got the email (years ago now) from Sangrio about him NOT delving into BASE on his site, and I should not delve into Skydiving. Then I also remember first finding out about the BASE Forum on his site, yet I still have stuck true to my word. I guess that is the cure of BASE. There is no true way to win, and you are always going to be confronting everything on your own.

Sorry to babble, but you weren't listening anyways.